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halo !
sekarang gua bakalan jadi blogger normal, huehehe yang suka baca mah bodo amat lah.
oh iya, gua sekarang lagi nge faaaaaans banget sama yang namanya DANBO

iyaaah yang kaya gini nih :














lucu yaaaa imut imut gitu walau mukanya polos abis.
PENGEN BELIIIII IBUUUUUUU

LUCU BANGET DEH LU

lucu deh ya lu.
lucu bangeeeeeeeet.

GIMANA BLOG GUA ? BAGUS GA ? BAGUS KAAAAAAN ? baca aja terus, gua ga MARAH kok. lucu banget deh lu salut gua MUAH.

najis sia sok ga peduli tapi masih nanya nanya, URUSAN LO DIMANA ?


baca nih baca sama lu, baca aja. nih baca nih.



BEST LOVE REGARD! (HUAK CUHCUHCUH)

Fitriana ferhadija Yasid.


n.b : sumpah demi gua nyesel udah ngasih lagu if you're not the one buat lu. nyesel banget bangetan

rencana x

oh iya, asalnya gua mau melaksanakan kembail rencana x buat MENYEMBUNYIKAN lagi blog gue, cuma entah kenapa ga bisa, yaudah lah, gini aja dulu

lebih tepatnya ini buat someone-who-i-ever-loved-for-two-years

yes it was you, monster.


If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this **much** is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I'm praying you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?


dunno, sometime i guess that i dont have any feeling anymore with him, but.., this song reminded me to you, for unexpplainedable reasons.
hmm

aah, jadi males posting blog kan jadinya. esha-i-te

Oh, haloo readers!
(Sekarang gua tau kalo gua punya readers)
Oke, semoga sindiran diatas cukup yah.

Ah, males banget, blog gua ada yang baca.
Sebenernya bagus sih, kesannya blog gua kan gaul (cuh) ada yang baca.
Tapiiii...., yang baca itu (menurut gue) adalah orang yang gue ga nyangka dia bakal baca blog gue. Dan gua gamau dia baca blog gue.
Zzzzz dimanakah letaknya privasi oh tuhan?

Apalagi, gue suka curhat-curhat tolol disini. Mana geleh banget lagi, merasa jadi wanita gua.

Tapi, ga boleh nyalahin juga sih gue. Masa orang ga boleh baca blog gua ? Lucu amat.
Nah! Dalam hal ini yang onyon jelas gua, kenapa pake acara curhat-gaje-dongdong-malumaluin disini ?


I regret that.

Meski begitu, nasi sudah menjadi kubur, eh bubur (najis lawak). Ya hanya ada dua cara untuk mengatasinya.

1. Berhenti curhat disini, dan cabut ke website lain.

2. Melaksanakan rencana x terakhir, yang berarti gua bakalan repot sendiri entar.

Jadiiii, kayanya gua mulai jarang ngoceh disini lagi. (Emang udah jarang lagi sih, paling kan disini isinya cuma puisi puisi doang)
Daaaaan mengambil ancang-ancang untuk melaksanakan rencana x.

Finaternyatamanusia.blogspot.com , jangan khawatir nak, aku akan selalu menengokmu.
Jaga diri baik-baik, selamat tinggal. (Ngelambain saputangan)


N.b : mungkin ada yang baca lagi, BODO AMAT ah.

posting di NF nih hahahha

as real time shadows

while my eyes closed, I see.
abstract silhouette of a shadow
divorced, ruffled, gathered, together.
paint a face as real time shadows.
you.

pensive
hard to believe, and I do not want to believe
that my brain is sophisticated enough to record your smile
and play back when darkness swallowed the light,
when my eyes closed.

frustrated
you, do not also go
incarnated in the shadows of false
in my heart.

I realized
I no longer flat as a mirror.
and I want to
you have, more than a superficial as real time shadows.


16-01-10
silly

hmmmm

I want you to feel what I feel
I want you to feel how justice as gone as you have loved someone for 2 years but had to let it go with a new woman who liked a few weeks.
I want you to feel how embarrassed me sms someone with kindness and joy, but what you only got is satire, cynicism, and anger endless false.
I want you to feel the pain when she said she gave up 'he' for you because she knows you have more than a feeling, but in the end she got more than you and proud of it.
I want you to feel what it was like when she let alone 'he' just did not care to see pitch you can only froze resigned.

I want you to feel so I though only a day, with all my feelings, and all reality.
I want you to read this, though not perhaps because you're not my friend. and if your friend would not care to read this stupid note.

really a hypocrite if I said I do not want to see your relationship ends.
But, if you see the smile 'he' is so happy, I feel very selfish to have to make that smile off his face pull out
Because of that, I just ask you to pray for me so that I could remove 'he' sincerely without having to constantly cry, hope, and love.
Because now I can not let go of 'him' of fantasy.
Because I was too tired to face absurdsitas fall and love.
Because I want to stop thinking about 'him', even when 'he' never thought of me a second.
I just want you to feel my position, until you understand and feel, then come back to you, with him.

To be honest, I really feel this note (and I of course) really stupid and whiny.
but I can not deny this reply that I felt.


26/12/2009
like the tsunami last 5 years.
such as the heart is always a mess and drown.

special mother day's poem yang ga sempet dikasih hiks

sama kaya yg sebelumnya, ini di translet, abis keliatannya bagusan pake b inggris hehhe

On behalf of the trials that never subsided
On behalf of your love that never vanished
So this
Dear endless faces behind the scowl
Reversed respects endless complaints that came out of oral tired

There was no attempt, which seen
Only prayer and a prayer
That accompanied each of your sweat

Know
That the heart is always tucked a prayer for you
And look
Highlight the love behind the membrane hubris

Understand
Because of my inability to express all the shackles of ego in the shadows
And find
The desire and hope for your happiness present in every fantasy
No words, able to come out
Only there is a sense reflects all
For you, just for you

Tribute to my beloved mother
Ilysm 


22/12/2009
Special Mother's day

puisi made by me and translated by mas gugel

gua lagi iseng iseng liat, eh ada puisi lama gue. geleh banget isinya haha, tersu gue coba translate ke inggris pake google translate, heheheheh jelek banget deh.

Is this loyalty?
As many times fall
My hope was likewise collapse
Knelt motionless while her away

sun came for him
Leave the dark clouds rumble in the soul
drip drop heartsick
Leaving wounds

Whether rigid
Or just stupidity
But the wound remains open
Maintaining wound
Maintaining grief
Late, late
Hearts and love drowned by it


But desire does not even try to reach
Because she knew expectations would never be achieved
Irony, pain, unrequited longing for her
Shortness of breath and the void of ego stuffed hope

Indefinitely
Her stay in the dark despair
And lost in the labyrinth of ignorance
Then up stood in silence, in the name of loyalty

Or maybe
She will travel
Exploring every character, every face
Opens the way for a handful of love
To search for a new sun
That can illuminate his heart

23/12/2009
Confused, really confused.

mengumbar aib

Haloooooo disini gue mau mengumbar tentang hal privasi sedikit (ga begitu sedikit sih, mmm, yah lumayan, oh OKE BANYAK )

gue baru pulang nih dari mabit motivasi UN sekolah gue, mabitnya di villa puncak loooooh hahahahah atuh yah bosen di sekolah wae.
mana kelas 9 doang lagi yang ikut, ish shishishishi. asik juga ga diganggu sama anak anak kelas 8.
oh iya, di postingan gue yang ini nih , gue kan bercerita tentang eragon PAKE TANDA KUTIP, dan eragon ASLI. sekaraaaaaaang gue mau bahas tentang ERAGON TANDA KUTIP YANG MAHA GANTENG TAK TERKIRA-KIRA.


ehm, geleh ih.

nah, jadi ceritanya si "eragon" kan kelas 9 nih ya sama kaya gua dan monster (heh ngapain itu bocah dibawa-bawa lagi ?). jadi dia ikut mabit juga kan, aduh beneran itu mah cobaan pisan. dapatkah kau bayangkan jika ada cowo super ganteng mondar-mandir di depan mata dengan enaknya ? ya allaaaaaah cobaannya berat abis.
intinya sih, kalo liat tuh anak, perut gue ngilu.

terus juga, kalo misalnya dulu si monster gue puji puji ganteng (padahal mah kaga). sekarang yang ini mah BENERAN ganteng. apalagi kalo lagi ketawa, cakep banget deh. kalo bisa mah gua kasi dah potonya, masalahnya, gua aja ga punya, hiks.

tapiiii...
dulu teh, pas gue masih suka sama monster, tuh anak pasti ngehindar wae sama gue, kalo ketemu buang muka, kabur. pokonya nge hindar gitu deh geleh kan.
nah! pas gue udah mati rasa (atau tepatnya ganti objek)sekarang si monster jadi suka muncul-muncul di mata gua (tsah!). waktu ada talk show duduknya sebelahan (ga pas banget, agak jauh. iyalah kan dipisah sugan ikhwan akhwat). oke, SELALU sebelahan
sebel deh, kenapa ya ? dulu mah padahal mau ketemu juga musti puasa 3 hari 8 malem, sekarang ? ga diminta aja dia nongol-nongol. hmmmm dunia sungguh tak adil, kawan.

okeeee segitu aja ah, masih cape gue sebenernya. cuma sempetin posting dikit heheheheh adios !

owl city - fireflies

keren liriknya, gue suka

lirik :

You would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
Lit up the world as I fell asleep

'Cause they'd fill the open air
And leave teardrops everywhere
You'd think me rude
But I would just stand and stare

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems

'Cause I'd get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightning bugs
As they tried to teach me how to dance

A foxtrot above my head
A sock hop beneath my bed
A disco ball is just hanging by a thread

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

Leave my door open just a crack
(Please take me away from here)
'Cause I feel like such an insomniac
(Please take me away from here)
Why do I tire of counting sheep
(Please take me away from here)
When I'm far too tired to fall asleep

To ten million fireflies
I'm weird 'cause I hate goodbyes
I got misty eyes as they said farewell

But I'll know where several are
If my dreams get real bizarre
'Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
Because my dreams are bursting at the seams


ini videonya :





sintiiiiinggg keren banget gaaaan ni video

ini orangnya, Adam Young (lagi nongkrong) :

kisah cintaku oh kisah cintaku

aloooohaaaaaaa.
oki doki. sebelum gua membahas judul yang menurut gue geleh tersebut.
gua mau ngasih tau kalo gua lagi terserang obsesif complusif sama yang namanya ERAGON.
iya kawan, eragon yang ini dan info tentang eragon bisa dilihat disini.
gatau kenapa gua sukaaaaaaa banget sama eragon dan lebih sukaaaaaaa lagi sama pengarangnya yang maha jenius. kakanda Christopher Paolini :

Subhanallah ganteng banget si kakang.






oh iya, kalo misalnya diliat di film, eragon ganteng sih, tapi semenjak gua baca bukunyah, kayanya di imajinasi gue eragon tuh jauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh lebih ganteng. buhuuhuhuh biarinlah.
oh iya, sumpah ga berlebihan tapi gua SENENG BANGET BANGETAN begitu tau buku eragon yang keempat mau keluar. gua penasaraaan banget sama kelanjutan buku brisingr yang maha seru ini. haaaaaaaaaaaaa (histeris)

oh iya, kalo si rina ada disini, dia pasti udah ngeledekin gua. soalnya nih, diantara temen-temen gua, yang namanya eragon itu ada dua. Yang satu eragon-shadeslayer-penunggang-ganteng dan yang satu lagi "eragon"-autis-tapi-maha-ganteng. siapa tuh "eragon". naaaaah ini yang mau gua ceritain sekarang.

Yahh.., bagi yang suka baca blog gue, pasti tau lah kalo gua cinta (hueks) sama yang namanya "monster". udah dua taaauuuuuunnn meeeen, tapi gua tak juga dianggap heheh hiks sedih emang. hehe, tapi lama kelamaan ya mati rasa gitu lah gue sama si monster jelek ini. dianya juga udah punya pacar. Dan aku pun sudah bertemu orang ini.

Jadi, si "eragon" ini adalah gebetan temen gua selama LIMA TAHUN. hahahah lebih parah dari gua noh. terus, si temen gue (emprut) ini juga sama nasibnya kaya gue, sama sama dicuekkin, terus si emprut menemukan pangeran baru, daaaaan singkatnya mereka jadian, dan si emprut meninggalkan gebetannya yang super ganteng itu sendirian.
sendirian
sendirian
sendirian...
wuoooooh, gua sama temen-temen gua yang lain langsung norak berebutan, apalagi semenjak si "eragon" ini punya FB. makin makin deh hahahaha.


tapi eh tetapi, ternyataaah. Alhamdulillah gue yang "berhasil" wkwkwk bejat.
AKIBATNYA, gue jadi.., yah emm, gitu deh, suka. hoeks.


aaaah pokonya gitu deh hihihih malu eyke.
oh iya, sebelum cabut. gua mau promosi lagi. gua lagi suka banget sama lagu-lagunya owl city. apalagi yang fireflies hahaha liriknya keren, yu now.




well, then. udahan yaaaaah ngantuk gue heheheheh adios !